life as we know it.

ian's bday party was last night. hung out with some of the coolest kids on the face of the planet, and realized i'll miss them all like whoa.

now i feel like shit. mostly because of the mass amounts of citric acid from the mt dew eating me from inside out...but a lot because every time i try to check up on someone, they've always got some news or thought that makes me want more and more to freeze time and fix the world.

right here, this is where i like it best. fuck college. what is it in the long run? just another path to a life of work that i'll have to endure for the rest of my life. this, the ability to see and talk to the best people i know, where my only worries lie a month away...this is where i like it.

but we have to go on. because the world's not stopping. and it's not getting better while i sit here wishing it were. so i pray. i'm not picky anymore. whoever will hear it, i want to listen. but i know no matter how fervent that prayer is, it can't stop every horrible thing from happening. i just wish it could.

sometimes i wish i could stop the world.